aft having two sinful dae of eating
i finally decided tat starting frm todae..
i shall cut down on my diet
do more exercise and shake of my spare tyre
hope i can be perservere enuf
and ya
i started my dae todae with 2 doughnuts
1 HL milk for my lunch
and dinner
i had slice fish soup without rice or noodles
haha
and tis is the start
and i am so hungry now!!
must REN!!!
i am sure i can do it

weekend was quite happening
thnks to my colleagues at my wkpalce
and my usual cliques

saturdae i realli ate alot
let me list down wat i eat
rice with curry chicken at 1plus pm
double filet-o-fish at 4plus pm
fish head curry and tie ban tofu and 1 plate of rice with my two other colleagues
and aft tat ate one curry puff
and hald packet of freid bee hoon
ya..
tats how sinful i am
eaten so so much
and sat was foto taking dae with my two colleagues at the CC
haha
so fun
goin ard takin pictures
althght the bond we had is not veri strng
but i am glad to have them to kip me company and entertained during my pass few weeks of wking at the CC
haha
goin to count down for my last week of wk over at there le..
shall miss them
miss the slack wking environemnt and time
and miss the money tat i can earn frm wking
haha

and yest
went to hav steambaot buffet with amy nana jeanie and shan
the five of them
ahha
i tink i ate quite alot ba
but dun tink it hit my potential yet
but cos stomach not feelin too well
so didnt eat till the max
haha
wasted
lol
but realli fun
so long since i last eaten there
past memories built there
r jus meant for kiping i tink
..
aft eating went to play pool with shan and jeanie while the couple went home
i did win two game ..but its becos they two goal the wrong ball when playing with me
lol
i am still new la..
was trying out the diff posture and techniques
lol
so i played quite slowly
but i hope i can master pool sooner or later
haha
aft tat went home

tml is anotehr wking dae
was tinkin if i shld go wkplace earli to use the gym not..
but i dun tink i can wake up
ha

and i hav mani target for my last year of student life
and they are:::
1)shake off my tummy
2)tan my body till golden black
3)learn how to swim
4)exercise to prepare for my cuming nafa test and army life a year ahead
5)attend 2NE talks required to graduate
6)hit at least a GPA of 3 (no 2.99 pls)
7)no unwanted spending, maintain acc balance
8)maintain a healthy diet
9)either to wait or to forget

i hope i can accomplish all of them
haha!!
give me ur support man!!
haha

i wrote a letter
i tink its a letter that wasnt suppose to be
to be given to the receipient of this letter
i scare the letter is too disgusting
too useless
too unwanted
too scary
tat it will destroy the oni relationship tat we had
and tats frenship
and scare the reader will avoid me
scare tat i might lose even the mild contact
i am stil deciding if i am giving
but aft i read e entry
i noe i shldnt give
y shld i give
y shld i interfere
y shld i dream
y shld i try

but at the another side
i feel like giving
i feel like trying
i feel like seeing the reaction
i realli wan to let the receipient noe my feelings
noe wat i wan to sae all tis while

wat shld i do..
sighXxxx
i hav 2 more daes to decide
tinking in progress

u dun hav to do anyting purposely to affect me
u are jus to "affective" to me
anyting u sae
ayting u write
anytin u do
without u noeing
i will be affected
i am jus too sensitive
its not ur fault neither its mine
its emotion and feelings that is wrong
my heart is going thru ups and downs
the feeling isnt good
a lot of guessing and tinking goin thru my mind now..aft seeing tat few words
my guessing falls on the negative side
i am at a losing end

without u, i am incomplete
i am seriously being affected by u
but i am willingly being hurt

there is a love inside me tat i cant describe
and i wonder if the love is to be or not to be

smilEx

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